I came home and realized that our life is complete bullshit. I hate it! I hate the fucken sun that is shining brightly as if it was spring.... I WANT SOME DAMN HEAVY RAIN!!!! i want big nasty clouds all over here and several tons of water falling from the sky.... and i want all the stinky people die... i want them at least stop annoying me with their crasy bitchy faces and asses.... and finaly, I WANNA FUCK! is it so very difficult for some asshole to love me? just tell me that he wants me to be with him? forever? why not? 'cause i'm an ugly stupid damn non-fucken beast? that's not a reason!!!!!! I hate every single day of my life. every single word that i say is complete nonsense. i'm just one of those freaky monsters that will always be losers. i hate the whole thing... i just wanna some rain. i don't want to see this fucken sun. cause it irritates me. i wanna be somebody else.